sighh. do you think im thinking right? i cant differenciate now. sometimes its just nuetral. then there are times when its frustrating and irriting and also times when im just.. enjoying... myself... my life... is it correct? is it wrong to feel? is it wrong to scream myself out... for once in my entire life.....

ive never screamed for a long.. long... longg.... time. all bottled up in me. and has never opened til.... now. is it wrong to express myself at times? am i just putting a mask over my face? does what i say, my every word, have a deeper meaning within? everything im saying? my every appearance. or am i just.... just.... just.... ..... ...... ......... playing around? is it so very wrong? to occassionally let out some flames? before my candle completely burns out. dying in the flames that had been keeping it burning... burning... its... not... wrong... isnt it?